Friday, 6/3/2026

I finally start to feel like myself!

But I am still stressed about things. I just, hate how the work enviroment in my home country is... You are just a slave, selling your soul for a job that does not respect you, nor help you AND pay you crumbs. What's the point? I want to live, not barely surviving... What's the point... We have only one life and we are gonna be spending it slaving our souls away? I don't get it.

But anyway, I have so many things that I want to do!!! I am still tired from working that hellish job, but it motivated me to try my hardest! I am planning on making an art youtube video, and it's gonna be a speedpaint and I will be talking about something (I am thinking of sharing my work experiences so far xD).

Then, I want to finally start working on my v-tuber model! I enjoy live2d so I don't think it's gonna bore me, but it IS gonna take a LOT of time.I ,also, want to draw a new profile picture for my gaming stream and ytb, cause I am using an old friends artwork and I just, dont feel confortable using it anymore. I gotta move on...

Therefore, I am starting to make tiktoks, art and gaming related, and I am planning on releasing them in the future! I want to work more on my art so I can finally start working on my BL this year. I don't know when this year, but I hope that by the end I will start! Now, I have signed up on (free) webinars and have started drawing more on my sketchbook, since it's also in my goals to finish my sketchbook this year. I am having SO MUCH FUN filling my sketchbook! I am trying to be creative and it's really healed a part of my relationship with art! So inspiring~

AAAAAA SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO AND SO LITTLE TIME AAAAAAA

Yesterday, my nephew and niece came over and they are gonna leave on Tuesday. Damn, I really am not good with kids... I am doing amazing with my own kid, but not with any other kid.I don't hate them, I am just uncomfortable... Thankfully, my hubby is very supportive and I am trying to be a good aunt/uncle for them. We took my nephew and my son to the park and they had a blast! Sadly, my niece is only 10 months old and we couldn't take her since she is very prone to serious illnesses. Better safe than sorry.

Anyway, I am getting VERY tired, so I am heading to sleep. Goodnight.