Friday, 19/6/2026

Today has been quite the fullfilling day. I manages to stream for around 4 and a half hours, took my son to the playground, made dinner and now managed to work on my neocities page (which I've been trying to do this for at least a month now xD).

But it has been really hard for me to be able to be too productive, usually I do not have the energy to do anything due to my hashimoto thyroid... Sometimes, I feel like I am gambling whether I will be able to have energy to survive the day or not.It really sucks...

Lately, I've been struggling a lot with what I want to do. Stream has been very hard lately and not only that, I've been doing it for at least 2 years and still I am at the same spot as I first started. Well, not really, I got my first loyal subscriber ,but I haven't hit affiliate so I cannot even touch the money that I made from Twitch . On the bright side, I can now get subs and put emotes without having to be affiliated!!! And I have a loyal sub! Never thought that I would reach that point, I was so close to giving up!

I was ,also, thinking about what I want to do the most regarding, art, youtube and twitch.My dream is to make an art youtube channel and yap while drawing, and also, sell merch and stuff, so how does stream work with these? I still haven't completely figured it out... What I figured out so far is that I want to start working on my art yap videos as soon as I can, that I do not want to procrastinate anymore. I am afraid but also excited for this path, I need a plan (because my autism won't help me without one xD) and then I will start working on it immediately! I already have an artwork ready for my first video, now I need to make some sprites and write a scripts, the script is the most scary part ngl...I will slowly and steadily figure things out.

Anyway, that was the entry for today, sadly, my brain is very cooked to write something more :( Hopefully another day!!!